Maddox and Madeline,
My sweet sweet babies. Words cannot describe the joy you bring my heart every single day. I am constantly battling between wanting you to stay little forever, and being so excited to watch you grow up. You are everything I dream of and prayed for and more! It's funny, when I tested positive on Sunday with my first ever natural pregnancy, my only reaction was hysterical laughing. I was laughing so hard my face hurt. But my emotions never went to tears, just extreme joy! The first time tears hit me was last night when it was my turn to pray with you before bedtime. You were sitting in daddy's lap with your hands folded, and I began to pray. Every night when I pray, I pray that you would always know how much I love you, that you would never doubt for one minute the amount of love I have. And for some reason when I prayed those words last night, I started crying. I know you won't read this for a long time, and I'm sure I will tell you this a million times in your life, but I have to make sure you know. I LOVE YOU! I love you just as much as the baby growing in my tummy. Whether my babies came to me through adoption or pregnancy has no bearing on the amount of love I have. I can't imagine my life without both of these things. I am going to cherish these last few months as a mommy of two, and then we will be so excited to watch you become older siblings! I love you with all my heart!!
- Hi everyone! My name is Sarah, and I am a Christian, saved and sustained daily by my wonderful Savior. I am a wife to my high school sweetheart, Mitch; we got married at 19! I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, an aunt, a co-worker, and a woman that struggles with infertility. God has used this struggle to completely transform my life. I have experienced fear, hope, anxiety, compassion, trust, peace, tears, excitement, pain, laughter, and many other things that come with infertility. But most of all, I have a deeper trust and friendship with my Creator and my husband, and for this, I am forever thankful. The purpose of this blog is for me to remember the ups and downs of this trial, and how my Savior has brought me through it all. For those who have never struggled in this area, I hope this blog will help you see a glimpse into the life of someone struggling with infertility, so that you might better know how to encourage them through these difficult times. I also pray that this blog will help other women struggling in this area to know that you are not alone! There is a river of peace that is found in Christ that can help you through even the darkest of circumstances, I promise!