My sweet little baby. Words cannot even describe the amount of heartbreak we feel right now. You gave us so much hope. Hope that we were able to get pregnant naturally. Hope that our twins would have a little brother or sister. But after today's doctors appointment, the only hope we have is that you are in Heaven with Jesus and with your brother/sister that we lost 15 months ago. I am so thankful that we have that hope at least. That we don't have to fear that you are just gone forever, or that your short little life didn't matter. It did matter, and we will see you again. Maybe not on a sonogram screen, and maybe not in our arms in October, but in eternity we will.
Before I tested positive this time, we agreed, don't tell a sole until we're passed 8 weeks at least. But as soon as I peed on that stick, I couldn't hold it in. I had to celebrate you. I had to tell the whole world, because you are that important and special to us! Some might think it's hard to announce an early pregnancy for this very reason, because then if something happens, you have to announce the loss as well. But I think it was worth every moment that we were able to celebrate your life with our family and friends! And now in this tough time of losing you, we are surrounded by amazing people that are praying for us non stop.
I love you more than you will ever know, and I'm so thankful for my two babies now in Heaven that never have to suffer a minute of pain on earth. Your life is worth celebrating and will never be forgotten!!
- Hi everyone! My name is Sarah, and I am a Christian, saved and sustained daily by my wonderful Savior. I am a wife to my high school sweetheart, Mitch; we got married at 19! I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, an aunt, a co-worker, and a woman that struggles with infertility. God has used this struggle to completely transform my life. I have experienced fear, hope, anxiety, compassion, trust, peace, tears, excitement, pain, laughter, and many other things that come with infertility. But most of all, I have a deeper trust and friendship with my Creator and my husband, and for this, I am forever thankful. The purpose of this blog is for me to remember the ups and downs of this trial, and how my Savior has brought me through it all. For those who have never struggled in this area, I hope this blog will help you see a glimpse into the life of someone struggling with infertility, so that you might better know how to encourage them through these difficult times. I also pray that this blog will help other women struggling in this area to know that you are not alone! There is a river of peace that is found in Christ that can help you through even the darkest of circumstances, I promise!