About Me

Hi everyone! My name is Sarah, and I am a Christian, saved and sustained daily by my wonderful Savior. I am a wife to my high school sweetheart, Mitch; we got married at 19! I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, an aunt, a co-worker, and a woman that struggles with infertility. God has used this struggle to completely transform my life. I have experienced fear, hope, anxiety, compassion, trust, peace, tears, excitement, pain, laughter, and many other things that come with infertility. But most of all, I have a deeper trust and friendship with my Creator and my husband, and for this, I am forever thankful. The purpose of this blog is for me to remember the ups and downs of this trial, and how my Savior has brought me through it all. For those who have never struggled in this area, I hope this blog will help you see a glimpse into the life of someone struggling with infertility, so that you might better know how to encourage them through these difficult times. I also pray that this blog will help other women struggling in this area to know that you are not alone! There is a river of peace that is found in Christ that can help you through even the darkest of circumstances, I promise!

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Esther & Good News

Baby, 

Over the past several weeks and months, I've felt like all we have received is bad news. Time after time, we were praying for good news, and every time the result was bad... until yesterday! Finally, a prayer that we were praying, God answered in a very obvious way. I went to the doctor for my follow up appointment after surgery and everything has healed and is back to 100% normal in record time! Week after week, I was setting records for the longest miscarriage the office had ever seen, so it was an amazing moment when the doctor told me that I've now set a record for the quickest D&C recovery! Praise the Lord!!

While I was in that sonogram room yesterday, God reminded me of something that brought me peace. He reminded me that He has been with me for the entire 21 weeks that this has been going on. He was in there on the first day of treatment. He was there on the day my pregnancy was confirmed. He was in that room on the day the doctor told us that your brother or sister was no longer alive. And although it didn't feel like it, He was there every single time the nurse had to tell me that the miscarriage was still lingering. And yesterday, He was there when the doctor was finally able to give me some good news! God was there! I might have a love/hate relationship with that sonogram room, and I might not always feel like God is there, but I am so thankful that He is! I am beyond thankful that regardless of how huge my faith is on any given day, He will always be in that room with me!!

On another note, I have some even better news for you! There is a book that I can't wait for you to read one day. It's called the Bible!! I pray every day that the truth in this book would change your life in the same way it has changed mine and daddy's. Sometimes I forget how interesting the Bible can be, but then I remember that God is the best author there is! Today, I read the book of Esther for the first time in years, and it just reminds me over and over again that God's providence is beyond anything that I can imagine. His wisdom is so great that He is able to perfectly plan circumstances far beyond what we could ever imagine. I would never have imagined that I would be dealing with infertility, or that I would have lost a baby, or that I would even be writing this blog right now. But, there was one verse in particular that stood out to me while I was reading Esther. 


Esther never imagined that she would be Queen, or that she would find favor in the eyes of the king, but God used her in a mighty way!! Obiously, I am not a Queen, and God has not used me to save an entire nation of people. But, my prayer for myself during this entire journey is that God would use me in a mighty way, even though I would have never imagined this being my life story. In some small way, I feel like this journey is part of why God created me. He wants to mold me and make me more like Himself, and this is the way He has chosen to do that. And although I feel like I am constantly failing Him, I do think that our journey is part of why we were created. God knew before time that daddy and I would meet, and that we would travel this road together, and that it would encourage the countless amount of people that we've now been able to cross paths with. He sustains us on the days that we feel like there is no hope. And He molds us into vessels for His glory, (even though the molding process is sometimes extremely painful.)

I cannot wait to meet you one day, and read the Bible to you, and tell you all about the ways that God has shaped our lives in preparation for you! And I especially cannot wait to see what God will do in your life, and in your siblings lives! I can't wait to see the moment for which you have been created, and how God will use our children to further His kingdom! We pray every single day that you would have a passion for the Lord that is undeniable, and that you would treasure the truth of His word, in the good times, and the hard times. I love you so much!!

-mommy