About Me

Hi everyone! My name is Sarah, and I am a Christian, saved and sustained daily by my wonderful Savior. I am a wife to my high school sweetheart, Mitch; we got married at 19! I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, an aunt, a co-worker, and a woman that struggles with infertility. God has used this struggle to completely transform my life. I have experienced fear, hope, anxiety, compassion, trust, peace, tears, excitement, pain, laughter, and many other things that come with infertility. But most of all, I have a deeper trust and friendship with my Creator and my husband, and for this, I am forever thankful. The purpose of this blog is for me to remember the ups and downs of this trial, and how my Savior has brought me through it all. For those who have never struggled in this area, I hope this blog will help you see a glimpse into the life of someone struggling with infertility, so that you might better know how to encourage them through these difficult times. I also pray that this blog will help other women struggling in this area to know that you are not alone! There is a river of peace that is found in Christ that can help you through even the darkest of circumstances, I promise!

Saturday, November 8, 2014

Overwhelming Tears of Joy

Baby,

Today was such a good day! There have been several times since we found out about you that I have had moments of just absolutely overwhelming laughing and crying at the same time. Totally out of nowhere I will just start crying and laughing, which makes daddy laugh at me because I just cannot control this emotion of sheer joy.

Today, I had one of those moments. We decided to go shopping at the outlets today in Tennessee, and for some reason, the moment we pulled into the parking lot, I was covered in tears and laughter, and just couldn't stop. I had a memory pop into my mind. Six months ago, we were at these same outlets with Aunt Hope and Uncle Jordan. We were shopping for things here and there, and all I could picture was you, everywhere I looked. Towards the end of shopping, I took a moment to myself and went to the bathroom and had a very short pity party (I try to make them as few and far between as possible).

And now, 6 months later, at the same outlets that I had a meltdown because I didn't know if I would ever get to meet you or not, I was having a joyful meltdown because you were finally with me, in my belly. It is little moments like this that make me thankful for our wait. The joy that I am experiencing now is so much greater than it would have been if we had gotten pregnant that first month we started trying.

I am praying for your sweet little heartbeat, and toes, and fingers, and belly button, and nose, and every single little part of you. I will never be able to fully explain how much joy you have already brought me! I LOVE YOU!!

-mommy

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