One of the most common verses that people use when talking about the gift of children is found in Psalm:
"Children are a heritage from the Lord, offspring a reward from Him." - Psalm 127:3
This verse has really troubled me lately. What have I done to not be receiving this reward from the Lord? Am I being punished for something I've done? If children are a reward from God, why is this reward being withheld from me?
And then even more puzzling questions cross my mind.
Why do prostitutes get pregnant? Why do murderers have children? Why do atheists and people in the world get to experience the joy of parenthood?
Then after pondering, and weeping at times over these questions, I came to realize something. God blesses people with children based on His perfect providence in their lives, not based on their merit to deserve those children. If children were only given to those that "deserved" such a blessing, then no one would have children. God has a perfect reason for why each child enters this world, whether they are born into a Christian home, or born to a prostitute. It's not my job to figure out why God creates human life, it's just my job to glorify Him whether He ever gives me a child or not.
I pray and beg God daily to grow our family and give us a child, but along with that prayer, I also pray that God would be my portion, and that I would not be any less satisfied in Him if He chooses not to ever bless us with a child.
I also pray that my heart would realize that God's love is not any less for me if He chooses not to bless us in this way. In fact, His love is so great for me that He knows perfectly what I need in my life to grow closest to Him, and that is what He is going to give me.
I love you so much, and I pray that we will get to meet you very soon!
- Hi everyone! My name is Sarah, and I am a Christian, saved and sustained daily by my wonderful Savior. I am a wife to my high school sweetheart, Mitch; we got married at 19! I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, an aunt, a co-worker, and a woman that struggles with infertility. God has used this struggle to completely transform my life. I have experienced fear, hope, anxiety, compassion, trust, peace, tears, excitement, pain, laughter, and many other things that come with infertility. But most of all, I have a deeper trust and friendship with my Creator and my husband, and for this, I am forever thankful. The purpose of this blog is for me to remember the ups and downs of this trial, and how my Savior has brought me through it all. For those who have never struggled in this area, I hope this blog will help you see a glimpse into the life of someone struggling with infertility, so that you might better know how to encourage them through these difficult times. I also pray that this blog will help other women struggling in this area to know that you are not alone! There is a river of peace that is found in Christ that can help you through even the darkest of circumstances, I promise!