Periods come and go (you'll learn one day), and then it's time to start "trying" again. Every month that comes, I figure out what day we would be able to meet you if we got pregnant this month. And what group of friends would you be in school with if we got pregnant this month. What day we would we be able to announce to our friends and family, and what day would we be able to find out whether your initials will be CBA or MRA. I have it all planned out, every month. As much as I try to just let go, and forget about wanting you, I just can't do it.
If we do get pregnant this month, we will be able to announce to everyone on our 5th anniversary! This would be so perfect! Then we would find out your gender right around daddy's birthday! You would be one of the oldest kids in your class, since you would be born in the beginning of October.
This would be such a perfect month! But I always hope and pray that God will give us the strength even if it isn't.
Here's to a new month!
- Hi everyone! My name is Sarah, and I am a Christian, saved and sustained daily by my wonderful Savior. I am a wife to my high school sweetheart, Mitch; we got married at 19! I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, an aunt, a co-worker, and a woman that struggles with infertility. God has used this struggle to completely transform my life. I have experienced fear, hope, anxiety, compassion, trust, peace, tears, excitement, pain, laughter, and many other things that come with infertility. But most of all, I have a deeper trust and friendship with my Creator and my husband, and for this, I am forever thankful. The purpose of this blog is for me to remember the ups and downs of this trial, and how my Savior has brought me through it all. For those who have never struggled in this area, I hope this blog will help you see a glimpse into the life of someone struggling with infertility, so that you might better know how to encourage them through these difficult times. I also pray that this blog will help other women struggling in this area to know that you are not alone! There is a river of peace that is found in Christ that can help you through even the darkest of circumstances, I promise!