About Me

Hi everyone! My name is Sarah, and I am a Christian, saved and sustained daily by my wonderful Savior. I am a wife to my high school sweetheart, Mitch; we got married at 19! I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, an aunt, a co-worker, and a woman that struggles with infertility. God has used this struggle to completely transform my life. I have experienced fear, hope, anxiety, compassion, trust, peace, tears, excitement, pain, laughter, and many other things that come with infertility. But most of all, I have a deeper trust and friendship with my Creator and my husband, and for this, I am forever thankful. The purpose of this blog is for me to remember the ups and downs of this trial, and how my Savior has brought me through it all. For those who have never struggled in this area, I hope this blog will help you see a glimpse into the life of someone struggling with infertility, so that you might better know how to encourage them through these difficult times. I also pray that this blog will help other women struggling in this area to know that you are not alone! There is a river of peace that is found in Christ that can help you through even the darkest of circumstances, I promise!

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Bridesmaids Dresses, Assumptions, and Sweet Rolls

Baby,

One thing that mommy and daddy are pro's at is weddings. We have been in our fair share of weddings over the past several years. Aunt Rachel is getting married in 5 weeks! This is super exciting, but I really wish you could be there for it.

When I bought my dress for this wedding 4 months ago, I bought a dress that would accent my adorable baby belly. Well, seeing as how the wedding is 5 weeks away, and as of today I am for sure not pregnant, looks like my assumption about this dress was pretty foolish.

I put a time frame on God. Me, little ol' me, made a complete assumption that by April 5, 2014 I would have you in my belly, and you would be so big and healthy, that I would need a dress to accent this new adorable feature of mine.

Lesson learned.

Oh and guess where I'm going on my way home from work? To Wal-Mart, to buy a pack of sweet rolls. We all know what that means...

I've got to keep reminding myself that God is still good, even on the days that I don't understand His timing. Maybe I am learning these lessons now so that I can teach them to you one day, like my momma taught them to me.

I love you baby, and I pray that my assumption that I will hold you in my arms one day doesn't turn out like my bridesmaids dress assumption.

- mommy



Monday, February 24, 2014

None of them are you

Baby,

Did I mention that during this journey, 20 people now have announced their pregnancy. 20. That's a lot of babies. That's a lot of Facebook pregnancy announcements. As happy as I am that all of these precious babies are going to enter the world, none of them are you.

None of these babies will have my eyes, or your daddy's nose. None of them will kick inside my belly, or sleep in the bassinet next to my bed. None of them are you.

I just have to keep resting in the truth that God is the ultimate giver of life, and He will give us the desires of our hearts. It might not be in our time frame, but His timing always ends up being better in the end.

- mommy

Friday, February 14, 2014

Pregnancy Announcement

Baby,

I always expected our pregnancy announcement to be a shocker and a surprise to everyone around us. I imagined in my head seeing the complete and utter joy and surprise on the faces of our family and friends. We were going to knock their socks off with the news of your entrance into the world!

Well, as you know, we have been on our journey to meet you a lot longer than expected. After several months of trying, we decided to start telling all of your grandparents, and aunts and uncles, and your friends parents what was going on. We told them so that we could ask them to pray for us as we were patiently waiting for you.

Then it hit me, our pregnancy announcement wasn't going to be surprise at all. We weren't going to knock anyone's socks off. It was going to be old news by the time we actually do get pregnant. (Gotta admit, I had a bit of a pitty party for myself when I thought of this.)

During this time though, I cannot even begin to explain how many people are praying for us, and for you. Countless people are begging God on our behalf, and this has been the most precious thing to experience during this longer than expected journey.

Thinking about all of these people, and all of their prayers made me realize something today. We might not have the most surprising pregnancy announcement of all time. But I cannot WAIT to see the faces of all these precious people when we get to tell them that God has answered their prayers! God is going to use us, and you, as a real life example to people that He is good, and He does answer prayers! I cannot wait for that day!

But, for every month that we have to wait even longer to meet you, is just one more month of prayers that are being prayed for you! And I couldn't ask for anything more.

You are one prayed for baby, and you haven't even been conceived yet!

- mommy




Monday, February 3, 2014

Children are a gift, not a given.

Baby,

One thing I have gained during this journey are closer friendships with unexpected people. I never knew there were so many other mommies out there that had experienced this same dreaded wait for a baby. At church this morning, I had quite the meltdown. But it seems as though every time I have a meltdown, God puts the perfect person in my path to encourage me.

I had a thought today and I wanted to write it down so that I could come back to it if/when the next meltdown happens. I have always just viewed children as a given. They are an automatic end result of unprotected sex, right? Wrong.

Children are a gift, not a given.

- mommy