I don't even know where to begin, or if this is even a good idea, but I figured I will give it a shot. I have pictured you in my head for several years, ever since I married your daddy. The last 4 years of our lives though, I wanted your daddy all to myself. About a year ago we tossed around the idea of growing our family and finally meeting you, but we decided that we would wait until my 24th birthday to start trying. Long story short, I just couldn't get you out of my mind, and we made some changes to our insurance in the summer so that we could finally meet you once and for all!
I decided to stop taking birth control then, in hopes that we would be able to meet you 9 months after the day I stopped it! But, the road to meeting you hasn't been as simple and easy as we thought it would be, although I still feel like I am getting closer to you all the time.
We just got back from a little vacation to Tennessee and Kentucky, and for the 5th time now, I have had to deal with a day of the month that I used to look forward to. I used to rejoice and be excited when my period came, because we just weren't ready to meet you yet. But now, 5 times in a row, it has been the hardest day to swallow.
I know that God is teaching us something, and preparing us for whatever it is that He is doing with our lives. We are thankful that He knows exactly how this is all going to pan out. But I'm scared. I'm just flat out scared.
- Hi everyone! My name is Sarah, and I am a Christian, saved and sustained daily by my wonderful Savior. I am a wife to my high school sweetheart, Mitch; we got married at 19! I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, an aunt, a co-worker, and a woman that struggles with infertility. God has used this struggle to completely transform my life. I have experienced fear, hope, anxiety, compassion, trust, peace, tears, excitement, pain, laughter, and many other things that come with infertility. But most of all, I have a deeper trust and friendship with my Creator and my husband, and for this, I am forever thankful. The purpose of this blog is for me to remember the ups and downs of this trial, and how my Savior has brought me through it all. For those who have never struggled in this area, I hope this blog will help you see a glimpse into the life of someone struggling with infertility, so that you might better know how to encourage them through these difficult times. I also pray that this blog will help other women struggling in this area to know that you are not alone! There is a river of peace that is found in Christ that can help you through even the darkest of circumstances, I promise!